I'm getting excited about my trip to Death Valley. I bought some binoculars today. I've heard that when you view the Milky Way with binoculars, the milky part will distinguish itself into stars. I don't know if this is true but I'll find out. Maybe I'll use them to look across the vast flat lands to see mirages disappear.
I also talked to my therapist, Norma, today. She lives in North Carolina, but I still call her for a phone session when I really feel the need. Her understanding of things always grounds me. She said I don't have to think about the past or the future. All I need to do is feel my feelings, take care of myself, and get back on track. I don't need to let go or to hold on. There's no magical thinking involved.
I brought up that I feel conflicted by the need to vilify this ex boyfriend to get over the hurt and disappointment. She suggested that I think of him as confused instead. Smile!
Finally I've been thinking about my intentions for this blog and how it functions. I blog for professional reasons, but my art and creativity have always been bound by my life. I can't separate them. It's a little gross to go public with such raw emotion, but on the other hand I also use this blog to chronicle the essential events of my life -- which of course IS the source of my creativity. It's a circle!
Again thanks for all your comments and patience. Waking with the earthquake this morning felt natural. I'm still a little shaky, but I have a feeling that there will be some kinda kick-ass quilt making happening in my studio when I return from the desert!Photo: The Realm of Complete Joy, 2004, installation detail, by Sherri Lynn Wood